I want to apologize for being a part of this "online art community" sometimes.

When I was a kid, I thought of myself as an "aspiring young artist." I was reflecting what all the grown-ups were telling me. I was dabbling in all forms of art. I had some talent, for my age.

As a teenager, I was too rebellious. I got an F in art class and in creative writing. I was just simply too stubborn to do my assignments. I thought I was a free thinker, that I shouldn't be censored or bound by traditional rules of art. I was really just a stupid kid from a bad home. I was really just an ass. I could've done so much better. I could have developed my skills. If I had been disciplined enough, I could have been a serious art student.

As an adult, writing was too much of a sacrifice. It required me to dive into painful depths of my psyche, and stay up all night, and shut out my family. I was too uninspired, or too busy when I was inspired. I still have no developed skills. I wanted to go to art school. Couldn't afford it. I was patient enough to be disciplined, I had dismounted my high horse and wanted to learn "the rules" of traditional art. But maybe I had already missed my chance. Too many responsibilities.

Then my brother one day said "Join this website so we can stay in touch with eachother." I did. My brother was always inspired, always a free thinker. Always developing his skills, always trying to master his talent, and show us his point of view in a new way. He inspired me, but I never posted anything. Because I don't think of myself as an "artist" anymore. Always a creative person, never an artist. Out of respect for other artists, I didn't want to post my CRAP.

Then I began to log in more often, and what I saw was very disappointing. People's pictures of their cats, or stolen and ripped off images of Final Fantasy characters are getting Daily Deviations. What is considered "ART" on this website is very subjective. What is considered "popular" on this website, usually is a nude girl, or someone else's idea. Amy Brown rip-offs and so on. I began to take this website for a joke. So I started posting my own "CRAP". It is CRAP. It is not art. It is a joke. It my joke. It is me laughing at this website when I upload "peices" to my "gallery."

However, I have found in this online SEA OF CLICHES, some real artists. Every once in awhile. And I take you guys very seriously. And you have my respect. Please do not be offended by my deviations. They are not my "work" because there was nothing about their creation that felt like WORK. But you guys work very hard on your peices. My deviations don't compare to yours at all, and I'm okay with that. I'm not an artist. Had I made different choices, maybe I would be. I think being an artist requires dedication, and I have not devoted myself to my "creative side" in quite a while.

This my hat's off salute to real artists in this "online artist community." Please look at my deviations and just laugh. Or don't look, because you can find something better I promise. One day if I post something I'm proud of, I'll put a disclaimer on it and label myself a poser.